Riech D. Cruz

1735 College Street

Beaumont, TX 77701

409-839-8404

riech@mycomputerlady.net

19^th Day - 15th Year!

19^th Day of The 1^st Month

10-22-2009

5^th Day of the Week, which is called Thursday!

"The Morning!"

Great are You, O Lord God!  Thank You for the rest that You give!  You are my Healer and my Deliverer!  You are Mighty in my eyes, and You are worthy to receive all the praise and the glory!  You remove frustrations and You keep my mind stayed in You, to where I do not stray, even in my thoughts!  You give the meditations and You cause me to meditate in Your Word!  Thank You for this time to write!  I had to write some things offline yesterday, because the wireless Internet was not working, and I thank You for giving me to just write, and save it to my laptop.  It came to me to write and then upload it later! 

This morning You gave me to meditate on being forced to do something!  I have been having dreams about someone, or something older forcing themselves on someone younger, who is not able to defend themselves!  Last night was the same thing, where I saw that a belief was being forced on me, that I did not agree with!  These dreams trouble me, and in the dream, I cried at what had been done, without my consent!

The dream showed that a doctor had taken our baby, and performed surgery on her, where she cut her lower stomach!  I had no say-so in what had happened and I did not even know that this had been done, until after it was done!  How did this happen!  The doctor was telling me that she cut her and I asked her could she still have children when she gets older, because I know that this is what she was trying to do, is to cut off the childbearing of our little baby girl!  The doctor was a female and she said, that yes, the baby could still have babies when she gets older!  But that she would have trouble laughing because of the large incision that she had across her stomach!  I remembered how I felt when I had a c-section, and I knew of the tremendous pain that the cut made, to even laugh or cough!  I was very sad thinking about Deborah Esther would not be able to laugh anymore, without causing herself pain!  This is when I started to cry, holding my stomach, because I remembered the pain I felt and it hurt me that Deborah Esther would have to feel that same pain, and she is at the point where she likes to laugh a lot with us, and now she would not be able to do it!

My Lord, this is the second night in a row, that I have been shown someone forcing something on someone else!  I had considered that isn't this also a form of spiritual raping?  The belief that the doctor had was not my belief!  I do not believe in cutting of the flesh, but this practice was forced on me, against my will, and the doctor did what she wanted to do, to the baby without my consent!  I was angry, because I considered how America is such a hypocrite, saying that we have freedom of choice, when we really don't!  I have seen parents sent to prison for not sending their kids to doctors to be treated for illnesses!  The parents said that they believed in God to heal their children, and they were not going to send them to the doctor!  But when the government found out about it, they took the children away and they arrested the parents!  This is a form of forcing a way on someone and I considered this to also be a form or raping!  Amen!

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