Riech D. Cruz

1735 College Street

Beaumont, TX 77701

409-839-8404

riech@mycomputerlady.net

86^th Day - 15th Year!

24^th Day of The 3^rd Month

12-28-2009

 2^nd Day of the Week, which is called Monday!

"The Evening!"

This is the day that You have made, O Lord!  Thank You for the joy, gladness and the praises!  Thank You for renewing my energy and strength!  Thank You for the Word and for the understanding that I received on yesterday!  I was told things that I needed to know.  There were something that were happening to me, and I did not know why this was happening, but the Lord spoke about it yesterday.   There are times that people will come and confess to me things that they had done and it does not set right with me.  I know that I cannot judge a person's sincerity!  My responsibility is to forgive them and pray for them.  But I would see certain people come and confess things to me and smile about the sin they did, or laugh about it as if it were a joke!  This would anger me!  I would also hear about the same person would go and confess to the Man of God, but would cry when the confession was made to him!  I wondered why would this person laugh when they confess to me, but cry when they confess to him?  I would tell this person, that when I was messing up and I sin, it was not a laughing matter to me!  I would feel bad, or I would feel scared of what God is going to do!  And also I did not confess to the same things everyday!  It was getting to be a weariness on me, where I would hear the exact same confessions every single day, about the exact same things!  I was growing tired and the last time I got angry!  When my anger rose up, then a guilt trip was tried to be throw on me about, "I don't like talking to you anymore!  Because you get angry!"  How does God feel when we sin over and over again?  What does a person want?  Does the person want me to coddle them and console them, and say that everything is alright, when I know it is not?  I cannot do that, because that is not what I was taught by Xmeah!  When I sinned, and would sin continually, God was pissed and He came down on me, hard and heavy!  But when I repented, which means to turn from the evil and do it no more, things changed and God's Voice changed!  God does talk soft with us, in the beginning, but when we continue to do evil, His Voice starts to change and He gets angry! We know how God feels, by listening to the voice of the Preacher!  That is the Mouth of God, in which He speaks to us, through!

I was very grateful to hear these words spoken yesterday about how we are actually hearing the spirit that is in the words, when people come and talk to us!  When the spirit is not right, even though the words might be right, in the confession, it does not set well with me!  I never judged the person as being sincere or not, I was looking at what was going on with me and my spirit!  But deliverance has come for me!  I am set free from any guilt trips! I am set free, because Understanding from God has come to me, through the mouth of the Man of God, Xmeah ShaEla'ReEl!  Blessed are You, O Lord God, my help and my strength!  Relief has come to me and great burdens have been taken off of me! 

I do not want any lost.  It does not matter all that was done to me!  I still do not want something bad to happen to people for what they do to me!  I know that there are a lot of people that try to hurt me, but I still do not want bad things to happen to them, and I do not rejoice when I hear about the bad things happening to them!  I know that we all get repaid for whatsoever we do, but I do not rejoice when people are receiving their just rewards! 

I remember a time when I was like Jonah, who wanted to see God kill people, or at least whip their butts real good!  And when God would have mercy on them, I was like Jonah and I would get mad!  That was a very wicked and disgusting way about me!  Little did I know what I was setting up for myself was to be destroyed by God!  Because when I would need mercy from God, I would not have it, because I did not desire for others to have mercy from God!  We are to be like Moses, who when he heard about what God was going to do to Israel for all of the sins that they committed, cried out to God for mercy!  He showed he did not want God to kill them, even though they vexed Moses all of the days since he led them out of Egypt!  They were a constant vexation to his mind, and he could have agreed with what God was going to do, but he showed his genuine love, and caring for the people and asked God to not destroy them! 

That was something that I did not have before.  But I asked for it, because I know I needed it! Thank You, Lord for giving me more of that Righteous Spirit!  We get more of what we ask for when choices are set before us!  Amen!

"The Morning!"

What would You have for me to do?  I do thank You for more of the organization being done!  Thank You for the help in getting the work table back in the shop where it was before I was pregnant!  I had to move it out before, because while I was pregnant it was not comfortable for me to sit and work at.   I ask that You would show me more things that I need to get rid of in this house and how to get rid of it!  I do not want to hold on to things and think I am going to sell it, and it just sits here!  If it is for sale, then I need to put it for sale.  If it is trash, let it be trashed.  Or if it is to be given away, let it done.  However You want for me to do it, it fine with me, O Lord!  Amen!

I know it is not more space that is needed.  It is more organization that is needed!  Amen!

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